Thoughts about Faith Part Two

I am now struggling with faith…oh don’t get me wrong I have NO doubt that Christ is my Savior and that he loves me and forever covered me in his grace. I have NO doubt that Jesus is with me forever on this earth and that I will walk with him into eternity. Even though I have No doubts about that I am struggling with trusting him completely you know that utterly with everything word. Why? you may ask
Well to put it quickly because the real word hit. I bought a car, moved into an apartment, experienced some of the world that Satan has a strong grasp on – basically I am overwhelmed I have a lot of financial responsibilities and no income – I have always wanted to be a teacher and for arguements sake I am one well in name but so far not in the practical sense. I still need a job and for now there is not one in sight. I have all these plans, all these ideas, all these responsibilities and I am having a hard time trusting in his promises… I know I am not alone that many people have been here too my prayer for the last few days has been like Thomas’ “Lord, I believe help though my unbelief.” I am comforted in the fact that Matthew 6 promises me that I will be taken care of and I am so thankful for the fact that I have friends that when the situation calls for it can gently (or not so gently) challenge and convict me.

Basically… Faith is hard

Those are my thoughts for today